Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I was talking with my DH about life and the normal things you say at the end of the day and I realized that one of the reasons we feel so stressed is because of how easy our lives have been. Every time we have moved it has almost felt as if the Star of Bethlehem was over the house we moved into. The jobs were immediately good and we knew, 100% that things were going as they should.
That is not to say everything is always perfect. I got pregnant right after we moved to Moab, before D. even opened his business. There were conflicts in Las Vegas at work and D even got fired in California. But it always seemed to work out quickly. There would be a week or two of anxiety and then everything would fall into place.
Now we are in a new area and we are still 100% sure that this is where we are supposed to be. We both felt that this was the house to be in and the job is working out. But there are more difficulties that aren't just falling into line. It is a new experience for us.
It is time for us to put into practice those gospel principles we have been studying and teaching to others. Walking by faith is pretty easy when your life is also pretty easy. Discovering exactly how much you have been supported by the Lord is enlightening. Frustrating sometimes, but we are learning a lot, about each other and ourselves.
Not to say that life is awful. The list of blessings would take a long time to write. And things are better than they were when we first moved, though really all that has changed is my perspective. I am grateful for that change in perspective because now I can move on and grow up a little more.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
I have been feeling guilty that I haven't posted anything lately. Things are evening out. I can find my way around and I bought a map of San Antonio, which is helping me feel oriented. The children are making friends, even R.
David and I are speaking in church tomorrow, I might post my talk. I am beginning to feel more able to arrange my life, instead of just respond to each new crisis.
I have read a few good books and I meant to write about them, but I am going to settle for a brief summary because I don't have a lot of time.
Made in America: A Social History was a much more interesting book than I was expecting, especially since I was reading it just before the elections. The book tries to follow social trends in America, like happiness levels, prosperity and our opinions about what is normal and how we should behave. The best thing about this book was the authors earnest attempts to be even handed. So many "Social histories" are liberal polemics and then you get the right making "The truth about. . ." X, Y or Z to try and even it out. The author really tries to show all options about what certain things mean. The end result is the idea that as a people we are still pretty much like we have always been. We like buying new stuff, be it IPhones or chairs instead of stools and we complain that everyone else spends too much. We want to be happy and try all sorts of new ideas to be so. And there have been people saying the nation has abandoned the ideals of the past ever since there was a nation. It made me feel much more hopeful about the common sense of the common people.
The other book I read was Towers of Midnight. I read an 850 page book in just over a day. I like these books. If you don't read fantasy you probably won't. If you do read fantasy you probably already know about these books. They are fast, intense and engrossing and I love them the way I love good chocolate, wonderful but too expensive to have very often. It is good these books only come out once a year or so.
The fact that I have only read two books lately shows how busy I have been, though I have also been watching Monk on Netflix. The baby has been sick and I stay up late and watch TV. I stopped nursing, for various reasons, and he promptly got an ear infection, roseola and a bad head cold. I always knew nursing was good for babies, I've been experiencing the proof.